The week I left my ex-husband I did 2 things. I hired an attorney and found a therapist. I’m not sure which came first but those were the first two really independent decisions of my adult life.

I had been in therapy for about 2 ½ years my divorce was finally over and I asked my therapist to help me find out why I did what I did (marry this man) as I never wanted to do that again.  My therapist was a great no-nonsense person who immediately said to me “Fasten your seat belt - this is going to be a rocky ride.” And fasten my seat belt I did.

With her help I put the mirror up in front of my face and started to understand why I did what I did. She also guided me to becoming the person who was strong and capable and FEELING.  Why am I emphasizing FEELING? I’ll tell you.

I was at home in my studio apartment alone one night watching television. I was watching a show (and sorry I do not remember the name of the show) but I do remember all of a sudden getting this tingling feeling going through my body. I immediately thought I was coming down with a cold or something. I had not had a feeling like that and could only think there was something physically wrong with me.

The feeling went away and on my next visit to my therapist I told her what happened. She smiled this bright smile at me and said “Nancy you are finally having your feelings. For so many years you have shut your feeling off and now that tingling feeling is your feeling coming back alive.”